HOW IT GOT STARTED
During my time in Spain, obviously I blogged. (If you want to know more about that adventure, click the Spain button at the top of the page). I found blogging to be much more helpful for reflection than journaling, which I did while I was in Liverpool, England. Even though I enjoyed blogging in the moment, I didn't think that one day I would need to start blogging again.
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Everyone reacts differently to a big change. Some ride it out and are fine, while others resist change, and even others slip into a depression. The last time a big change occurred for me was when I was in fourth grade. My family decided to move to Arizona from Michigan. I didn't cope well with that change and ended up slipping into a depression that lasted four years, some days worse than others. My only way out of the depression was building my relationship with Christ and pouring into it. As time went on, I learned to cope with changes better, but never experienced a change as big as in fourth grade.
In September, I found out that my mom had an interview for a job in Michigan. It wasn't the first time there was a possibility of my family moving back to Michigan, which is why I didn't think much of it when she had her interview. However, once she actually received the job, I knew that this time it was serious. My family was moving back to Michigan. For me, I never thought it was going to happen, even though it was painfully obvious that it would.
Now it feels like I'm back where I started. When I found out my family was moving, I felt myself slipping. The weekend that it became official, I had 10 mental breakdowns, involving crying and distress. Instead of pulling into myself, I prayed and asked God what I should do. He led me to tell others about what I was going through so that I wouldn't be alone in the struggle. That same weekend I decided to tell my boyfriend and one of my friends at my parents' church. They both agreed that I needed to do the same thing that God was asking of me. However, my friend suggested that I start journaling. I understood what she meant, but I already knew journaling didn't work for me. I felt God place blogging again on my heart.
As a result, I have started a new blog called Journaling, which is my main blog page. Yes, it's an imitation of the idea of journaling, but on a public scale to show that I'm not alone. Each blog represents my struggle and feelings at the moment of writing the blog. It will be a while before it becomes a consistent thing but thank you for taking the time to read. Prayers are greatly appreciated. Thank you for walking this journey with me.
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